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I'm bored.  Someone talk to me or rp with me or something.
I need help making more money on the side, no one wants to buy my art and I'm okay with that.  But I'm talking about a side business I can start easily with very little resources and slowly build up a good revenue.  Anyone got any ideas?

And I can't donate plasma anymore.

Like maybe advertising? 
My mother has seen all of my hard efforts, and as a result wanted me to move in with her, as well as my step-father.  They have been so kind to me, I have separated from my brother, who is now struggling to find employment without me.  We have also forgiven one another, my brother and I, but mainly him to me.  He was horrible to me for 5 months, and I don' think I can forget that.  Never the less I am still helping with his car payments, but not for much longer.  Me leaving was enough of a kick in the ass to get him going, and I'm happy for that.  I've made it very clear that if he stops looking, I stop paying at the snap of a finger.

Needless to say, a lot of tears were involved over guilt, and just general hurt.  People see me different now, both good and bad ways.  I've lost weight, I eat healthier, and I'm stronger than I was before...in my opinion I think.  A bit more mature, but I haven't in any ways mastered how to handle my emotions properly.  Sometimes I wonder what would happen if I chose the other route, but I don't know.  I can't look back.  I can't pull an arrow back from a shot wound and expect it to be okay again with some people I know.  The hole is still there...still bleeding.  All I can say is I'm sorry...but I have a life too.  My kindness only goes so far.

I'm doing everything I can to make my new living situation a paradise for both my mom and myself.  I'll be the best roommate ever!

I have my own laptop/tablet and I can't wait to start submitting artwork again.  Drawing with my finger may be a challenge though.  It's not fully mine, because I have a payment plan to pay it off along with car insurance.  Oh, but I got a new car too, did I mention I got a new car?  I got a new car! :D

Though I will do my best to submit my artwork when I'm not exhausted from two jobs.  Also, my hair these days looks so amazing.  I can't even wonder why I didn't have it short before. 

My face is thinning out.  I'm actually kinda pretty. :3 hehehehehe.....<3

I love you all!
First off, I'd like to say that I'm okay.

In fact I got a second job at DQ and I haven't lost my first job yet!  I think they do value me as an employee, so I'll keep working my best.  But here's some of the problems I have...

Okay I have two jobs now.  Soon will be gone the days where I can just have a rest day unless I schedule it, and I can learn to live with that, but what bothers me is that even I'm hard working and I have two jobs people still treat me differently just because I don't have a house.  It's really frustrating, they always ask me if I've found an apartment yet.  And when I answer no, they still shy away from me, like I want something from them, and I'm just standing there, like WTF.  Granted some people are very proud of me, but to those who don't really care unless I have a roof, it shows.

Even worse, my brother seems ever complacent about our position.  He doesn't mind if I seem to be carrying him everywhere financially, he doesn't look for employment unless I ask and that frustrated the hell out of me, not to mention he expects to be put on a pedestal for our situation.  I don't want a pedestal!  I want to be treated like a normal goddamn person.  I don't want sympathy, I want empathy, I want respect and love and kindness and all that good stuff.  I want people to see I'm working hard.  I'm not a bum, I take showers at gyms and I do my laundry and laundromats and I try to keep warm at night like everyone else.  I just don't understand why when I'm about to start two jobs, he doesn't take initiative and start looking for a better job of his own so we can both contribute a significant amount to the car, and save up for a future apartment.  He works 10 to 15 hours at Pizza Hut and doesn't seem to notice or give a shit when I gently ask him about it.

All this paying for HIS car has made me bitter, granted we are both living out of it.  It almost makes me not want to get an apartment because I'm the only one who wants to move upward while he sits all prettily screaming at his DS (by the way, he stole my debit card to buy it, and he won't give it back to me.  He lied to me twice.  Once for stealing my card, and the next saying he returned it, but he didn't)  Next he bothers me at work WHILE I'm stocking a huge freight load, and stands there and gives me the passive aggressive threat of giving him the EBT card so he can eat, or else he won't pick me up in the morning.  Of course I stood up to him, I have little patience for what he does anymore.

That's the basic sum of everything, I would love your advice please.
I work at a Walmart neighborhood market, and I work as a stocker, which over the past two months or so I've learned is a very challenging job.  You HAVE to have your freight done by a certain time, or they'll think you're slow...(and that's not a good thing because I'm naturally slow at heart, but when pressured I move as fast as I freaking can.)  But they always say if you have normal freight, get it done before 2:00 am, which is lunch at the shift I work.  But now they're saying because of the upcoming holidays to be prepared for double, or even triple freight, and those who can't keep up will be fired.  But they never tell you in person if they think they think you're doing a good job, or a bad job, they just always have a 10 pm meeting before we start working and they announce to everyone "I can't send anyone ANY more help, if the manager thinks your too slow, he said fire you." And I'm just sitting there, thinking 'okay I need to fold boxes faster and drop some weight' because I think my weight, though I have lost 20 pounds over the course of these two months, I feel it's not quite enough and that I could move much faster if I have to.

Not to mention it bewilders me how pretty much every one in the store has to break the rules with zoning in order to get work done.

Zoning:prettyfying the aisle and pushing items forward so you don't grab nothing.

This nice guy, we'll call him T, is super nice to me, and T gets all of his stuff done like, crazy fast, and I ask him what his secret is, and he says "Well, you just gotta stay positive, and when zoning you bring one item to the front instead of the traditional 4.  You just gotta think this pile is smaller than you."

But he's also hella skinny and I think that might also play a factor, but he gives great advice.

This job pays so well I can't afford to lose it, especially in my housing situation.  It may be a while before we ever get a house but we can't lose the car, we sleep out of the damn thing.  And my brother's job seems to be taking forever to get him a full schedule, and I'm just so nervous I'm trying to block off my emotions so I don't panic.

I'm looking for a second job to help me, even though I'll end up dog tired if I do get a second job, well, if I can find one like I found the gem I have at this moment.  

Advice please?
My mother has seen all of my hard efforts, and as a result wanted me to move in with her, as well as my step-father.  They have been so kind to me, I have separated from my brother, who is now struggling to find employment without me.  We have also forgiven one another, my brother and I, but mainly him to me.  He was horrible to me for 5 months, and I don' think I can forget that.  Never the less I am still helping with his car payments, but not for much longer.  Me leaving was enough of a kick in the ass to get him going, and I'm happy for that.  I've made it very clear that if he stops looking, I stop paying at the snap of a finger.

Needless to say, a lot of tears were involved over guilt, and just general hurt.  People see me different now, both good and bad ways.  I've lost weight, I eat healthier, and I'm stronger than I was before...in my opinion I think.  A bit more mature, but I haven't in any ways mastered how to handle my emotions properly.  Sometimes I wonder what would happen if I chose the other route, but I don't know.  I can't look back.  I can't pull an arrow back from a shot wound and expect it to be okay again with some people I know.  The hole is still there...still bleeding.  All I can say is I'm sorry...but I have a life too.  My kindness only goes so far.

I'm doing everything I can to make my new living situation a paradise for both my mom and myself.  I'll be the best roommate ever!

I have my own laptop/tablet and I can't wait to start submitting artwork again.  Drawing with my finger may be a challenge though.  It's not fully mine, because I have a payment plan to pay it off along with car insurance.  Oh, but I got a new car too, did I mention I got a new car?  I got a new car! :D

Though I will do my best to submit my artwork when I'm not exhausted from two jobs.  Also, my hair these days looks so amazing.  I can't even wonder why I didn't have it short before. 

My face is thinning out.  I'm actually kinda pretty. :3 hehehehehe.....<3

I love you all!

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Jesus wow.

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Thanx for favouring my latest Marilyn.
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Thank you for the +fav "Cat mom" !
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thefluffyhandgrenade Featured By Owner Oct 19, 2014  Student Filmographer
would you mind if I borrow one of your art pieces for a drawing I'm doing 
its a art museum thing and I need peeps drawings in the back 
I'll credit you of course  
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Thanks for adding my work to ur favourites! :D Heart 
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Cheers for the +fav, feel free to check out my other stuff.
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Yo, how are you feeling/doing?
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