My mother has seen all of my hard efforts, and as a result wanted me to move in with her, as well as my step-father. They have been so kind to me, I have separated from my brother, who is now struggling to find employment without me. We have also forgiven one another, my brother and I, but mainly him to me. He was horrible to me for 5 months, and I don' think I can forget that. Never the less I am still helping with his car payments, but not for much longer. Me leaving was enough of a kick in the ass to get him going, and I'm happy for that. I've made it very clear that if he stops looking, I stop paying at the snap of a finger.
Needless to say, a lot of tears were involved over guilt, and just general hurt. People see me different now, both good and bad ways. I've lost weight, I eat healthier, and I'm stronger than I was before...in my opinion I think. A bit more mature, but I haven't in any ways mastered how to handle my emotions properly. Sometimes I wonder what would happen if I chose the other route, but I don't know. I can't look back. I can't pull an arrow back from a shot wound and expect it to be okay again with some people I know. The hole is still there...still bleeding. All I can say is I'm sorry...but I have a life too. My kindness only goes so far.
I'm doing everything I can to make my new living situation a paradise for both my mom and myself. I'll be the best roommate ever!
I have my own laptop/tablet and I can't wait to start submitting artwork again. Drawing with my finger may be a challenge though. It's not fully mine, because I have a payment plan to pay it off along with car insurance. Oh, but I got a new car too, did I mention I got a new car? I got a new car!
Though I will do my best to submit my artwork when I'm not exhausted from two jobs. Also, my hair these days looks so amazing. I can't even wonder why I didn't have it short before.
My face is thinning out. I'm actually kinda pretty. :3 hehehehehe.....<3
I love you all!